Last Day of Exam = Emo Day

Last day of exam is also known as emo day. Why is it so? Sigh. Today I had my last paper which accounting paper. At first I thought everything will be fine coz paper 1 was ok ok. But when comes to paper 2, everything gone. No matter how well I can do in paper 1, once paper 2 cant do, FAIL is the word. I cant say paper 2 is hard, but it's not easy.

Yesterday maths paper was so difficult also. My goodness. Who set that stupid paper 1 and paper 6?! This semester confirmed failing 2 subjects. I really cant imagine when i'm asked to see ms,mary ng. Is it going to be scary or she will use a friendly tone to talk to me just like how ppl tam the children? Really cant imagine, or maybe I dun dare to imagine.

After this is holiday. 2 weeks holiday. Whoever not having holidays now must be jealous of me right now. But honestly, this is not a holiday to me. Before the one week exam, I have planned my activities for the coming holiday. When I say activities, dun think i'm enjoying it or whatever. 2 weeks holiday, 1 week is used for extra curricular activities. This exam already proven that I must work even harder for exam.

These days I always watch tv while studying. It's not that I dun wan to study peacefully or to focus better. But when i'm studying in room, I will fall asleep. Tuesday, i'm suppose to have my chemistry exam. So the nighr before that, I only had 1 hour slp. The next day, I was said that i'm still so active even I only slept for one hour. Maybe because I love chemistry so much till I wont feel like slping no matter how tired I am. So I can answer the questions. I'm not saying I can score for it, but at least not as bad as maths and accounting. But for maths, maybe I treat it as last time' s maths, look down at it. That's why I got such a bad ending.

Just now when I was in the exam hall, sitting for accounting paper 2. You know what happened? You wont believe it also. I actually keep flipping the paper again and again. I kept staring and staring. My mind was totally BLANK! Blank you know. Sigh. There are total of 12 sub questions, I left 6 questions blank. You can imagine how emo I am right now. So before the teacher announce 5 mins left, I already close my paper and lie on the table. Other ppl are rushing to finish their paper. I have no idea what I was doing just now. Maybe because i'm not suitable to study accounts? Last time I used to think accounting is easy, everthing bout calculations. If u think so too, it's not bout calculations, none at all. It's bout applying formulas and memorizing the formulas.

I dont know what I can do for accounting. I have a brother studying ACCA, but he cant help me also. Ppl always that if u have a smart and studying the same course as u, u will benefit from it. But it depends whether he/she willing to sacrifice his/her time to teach u or not lo. If she/he is like my brother, games are his life, then it's mission impossible. Anyway, let's end the academic topic, so stressful and emo.

Yesterday I watched a show. Forgot the show's name. So the thing is I realised psycologist actually works in the hospital!! I told my mom I want to be psycologist. Then she told me to finish my A-levels first. I replied " But the thing is i'm not taking that subject right now". Then she gave me a cold stare, "dun tell me u r going to repeat ur course again?' Lol. Obviously no right. Till now, I hope I can retake bio. But it's too late. Sigh.. Everytime think bout it, it's like taking a sharp knife cut deep into my heart for not taking bio.

I announce 2 weeks holiday start right now! But tomorrow I have attend all sorts of things ady. No time for me to rest also. I'm not going to think anything right now, but focus on ECA and studies. That's all I want !!