so long nvr post blog ady.. i guess some of u might be missing my blog =.= lol. last friday i just had my accounting test. guess how was it? SUX!! the first time getting zero.. 0 u know..makan telur.. lol.. although i havent got back my results, but the result is predictable. so damn kesian. the first telur in my life, the black spot in my life. lol..

anyway, today i'm lucky, i guess so? coz today when i reached college, my friend told me that we dun hv physics lab hours. although i like lab hours, but ofcoz everyone will prefer WBS right? somemore today is the march intake students' orientation day. so taylors college is kinda meriah today. guess what? today is also sunway college's orientation day for the march intake students. someone is smiling and hoping for smth now.. i hope he get what he hoped for and be the luckiest guy for today.. lol. those who know who he is then it's him lo.

i know someone will be reading my updated blog one day, i mean soon..so i want to take this opportunity to tell her smth, not from someone else's mouth (after adding smth not true which can lead to misunderstandings and make things worse). let me tell u a story first, last time in primary school, i hv 2 best friends. ya i know, best is only for one, but they r the best friends i ever met, except for yee ping and lee keng (they r secondary level best friends) lol. so..my best friends named ting san and joanna. ting san is a very good student, last time she is, but now not that sure, coz it has been a very long time i nvr seen her. last time we used to talk on the phone. but me and ting san wasnt that close. i was closer to joanna. we talked on the phone everyday for hours till my mom complain bout the phone bill. but that was my happiest moment, we shared everything, we even hv the same interests, that is why we were so close and happy to be together. but not longer ago, i met her. u guess what? that was the most hurtful moment. i saw her smoking. she is no longer the joanna i met last time. i wonder why she will be that naughty, in the sense that she doesnt want to sayang herself. stress? influenced by friends? or family prob? i dun noe. sigh.. i know everyone will chg, no matter worsen or better. but i dun expect that from her. she was once so good gal, results not that bad also, average. but now, i feel so disappointed. at the moment i saw her smoking, i hope she is not the friend that i respect. she was ENJOYING her cigrattes.. yeah..enjoying..conclusion, human's relationship is fragile. it can be broken easily. everyone used to say it depends on the bond, but it's not. thr r other factors that affecting the rel.

here, i wanna say smth to my ex- best friend. this isnt to hurt u. just hope u can understand. i dun want u to know from someone else and think on ur own. so i will make everything clear here. firstly, from the starting, the one i saw isnt the current u. u chged since the day we got closer. maybe as everyone got closer, they dare to say/do smth that they nvr dare to do so in the past. if is not that over, still fine. a lot of ppl might not be able to judge their own actions, whether it's over or still fine. secondly, u r always not punctual. let say, when we promised to meet up at 10, u can nvr be thr at 10 or earlier. u will oni be later than the time given. so when i ajak u, i hv to take in count the time u will be late. if it's not too over, ppl can tolerate with it. but if too over and make it too often, ppl will dislike it. thirdly, when u r given a task, u shud complete it in time, or complete it without any unwillingness. for example, if u hold a position in class or clubs or in anywhere, u shud be responsible for it, not to complain too much work etc. in addition, u dun hv ur own pendirian, everything following other ppl's will. according to someone, it is called to create the peace. but that is not the way. there are things u need to hv ur own opinion and insist that if u think it's right, but not those too wrong one la. i guess u can judge urself. actually all these arent to criticize u, it's for u to realise and correct it. it will be useful for u to work in the society in the near future. if i said it too over, or expressed it in a bad way, i would like to apologize. but i hope u can think bout it, the examples that really happened in real life u think bout it urself lo. u wouldnt want me to mention it here also right? lol. everyone has weaknesses and their strengths. but all these are the basic things u hv to chg. at first i tot of accepting ur nature (someone told me that =.=), but another person told me friends shudnt be like that, must be honest to each other, or help them up with their weaknesses. i was told i hv a lot of weaknesses also, and i know it isnt that easy to accept the truth. lol. but ofcoz when u want to criticize or say out someone's weaknesses, what i think is u must do it first be4 u r qualified to say someone else when u r making the same mistake also. so yeah..the one who always criticize me, think bout it also. and as i said, u must give chance for that person to chg. i hope u dun get too sad reading all this. it is not easy for me to type it out too =.=

so next thing i want to talk bout is now i'm like the poet who wrote "the road not taken". i am now studying phy, chem, maths and accounting. at first i wanted to take bio, coz i love bio and it is interesting, the career field is wide as well. but i guess it's tough for me, coz i always get C in exams, but mana tau i got A1 in spm. so i went to see mrs mary ng, our programme director. she said i cant take bio anymore, coz i missed so MANY practicals. i wont be able to catch up with it. bio was my first choice, my 2nd choice was further maths. according to zhen ming, it is all bout applying what u hv learnt onto the q and solve it. so that time when i came to taylors to register, one of the ADP (american degree transfer) said it's hard and everyone is studying that. so i dun noe whether i shud take it or not. end up, my mom told me to choose accounting, coz it is in demand. but now, i realised accounting isnt the field i want to enrol in next time and it is not suitable for me too. i cant even cope up with it. my bro who is currently studying ACCA, told me that is the very basic in accounting. =.= i cant even do well in it. but luckily, superman appeared and saved me. not saved..is saving half way. lol but he cant be spending so much time on that also coz he is not taking accounting. so it is just a waste of time for him. so now i hv to look for the further maths lecturer in taylors college and seek for their opinion. anyway, i hv been posting blog for an hour =.= so i hv to catch up with my studies now..SEE YA..post again when i'm free