Local or Overseas?

Another problem comes.. I just realised that i hv to decide which university i am going in the near future. Overseas or local? I really hope i can go overseas, not only because of their facilities and technology. It is like a totally new environment, so freshy.. lol.. But it depends on the budget also. Most importantly, my mom scares she will lose me if i study acturial science or smth which is more developed in other countries because most of the people will not want to come back to malaysia after working in the overseas.

Actually i can apply scholarships to support my tuition fees and living cost if i really want to go overseas. But my results so teruk, what am i suppose to do?! Everyone is saying SPM is nothing. Most importantly is your pre u results. People will still want to see your SPM results although the important one is your pre u results. They will want to know whether your results is consistent etc. Sigh.. it is not easy.. I regretted for not doing well.

I have walked past 1 quarter of my life, there is no way i can start my life all over again. Everyone must be until certain age only will think in a mature way. When we used to be a child, our parents will be keep nagging and say is for our own good, but we seldom take it seriously. Till now, after we grown up, as we look back, we will laugh at all the silly stuff we had done. Why were we so stupid? Why were we so sad over a small matter? When i was a child, i want to grow up to be an adult asap, dressed myself like an adult, act like an adult. But now, i really hope i can be a baby, start all over again. The kids now are really uncontrollable, or maybe because the generations are getting smarter and smarter. Sigh